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going out to all USASI members

Tue Nov 17, 2009, 4:33 AM
  • Mood: Optimism
  • Listening to: Invincible - Muse
  • Reading: The Liar - Stephen Fry
  • Eating: Facecake
  • Drinking: Tea
YES THAT MEANS ALL OF YOU.

NOT YOU NAAN BREAD *brick'd*



I'm going to attempt a mahooooosive chibi party, and I would like anyone who wants to get involved with critique and advice on how i should go about this mess of every single character we have on the same page.

Seriously. I have too much time on my hands.

If you have anything you would like to say either for or against this idea voice it now before i get stuck in with me crayons. True fact.


Oh, and take care everyone =)

xx


Just a quick one

Sat Oct 17, 2009, 9:07 AM
  • Mood: Content
  • Listening to: Goodnight, Travel Well - The Killers
  • Reading: A Clockwork Orange... again...
  • Eating: toffee yoghurt and crunchy nut cornflakes (numnum)
  • Drinking: Tea
okay so first an appology. I've hardly bothered with dA recently and have neglected all your art and journals like an angry loveless penguin using it's eggs as a football.

There I said something.

Been ultra-busy at uni and enjoying life very much. Only problem is what with all the raving and partying and gigs and (actually has been doing piss all) that that's been going on I've hardly been online.

Hope you guys don't hate me too much for my blatant neglegance.

Anyway, hope to get some new art up soon, have got me pens and pencils out of their dusty little corner into which they've been confined since a level revision started, and my camera's gonna start taking pictures other than drunken nights out in bristol so think yourselves lucky. I shan't be menacing the cast of skins for much longer.

Hope you're all ok and that stuff is going on in the right direction for you, hope nothing bad happens.

Take care of yourselves.

OH and if anyone wants to help me out with some requests I'll be happy tu use my shit skills and try and draw them for you. Ta much xx


UWWWEEEE

Thu Sep 10, 2009, 5:05 AM
  • Mood: Eager
  • Watching: Neighbours
  • Drinking: Tea
SOME MINOR DETAILS

I didn't get into Aberystwyth, stupid Welsh twats *is shot*.

If they hadn't been so rude on the phone maybe I wouldn't be so angry/racist.

-- "Is there any chance I can get in on a foundation course?"
-- "No, sorry Miss Elliott, we don't want you."
-- *cue dial tone*

Yes I was angry.

BUT

Thankfully my insurance university, UWE (that's the University of the West of England), said they'd take me anyway... with two a-levels... ah well.

So yus, 18th, I'm off to UWE UWE UWE!


About me....

Wed Aug 19, 2009, 3:38 AM
  • Mood: Panic
  • Listening to: Lemon Jelly - Nice Weather For Ducks
  • Reading: Moab again... up the Uley MASSIV!
I stole this from :iconcreative-dragoness:, or Tammy if you like to go by names. Show her love.

Ten Things I Wish I Could Say To People

1) I really really love you so open your eyes and see it.
2) There's more to life than yourself. Recognise that there are people around you that can get hurt by what you do.
3) Please let me stay home...
4) Shut up about my breasticles!
5) It's difficult standing between the two of you knowing that you hate each other, I wish you'd notice I'm supposed to be a friend and not just a means of communicating hate.
6) Maybe I am a manic depressive but at least I'm cheerful SOME of the time... unlike you...
7) Yes I am scared about the future. I'm terrified. Leave me alone.
8) Yes I do know the one about the cider drinker. Ooh arr ooh arr.
9) I say what I think, maybe it's not always hard to take but it's true.
10) All ten are broken, that's why they are freaky, so stop staring at my toes.


Nine Things About Myself

1) I'm having a fortnight of hellishness.
2) I don't cry in public, I rage.
3) I love my dad. I need my dad to pick me up when the world goes to shit.
4) My best friend keeps me sane by calling me at night times. I don't know whether he realises but it stops me going spazz-mental on a daily basis so thank you.
5) There's nothing more terrifying to me than failure.
6) I am borderline manic depressive and have issues with stability.
7) I can't dye my hair, for some insane reason. What ever colour I put in it lasts three days then fades. For funsies. Evil God wants me to be ginger forever.
8) I wish they hadn't demolised Rednock. Too many memories.
9) I let people kick me when I'm down. I pretend to be tough but I get hurt very easily. I hide away from the real things then end up crying over stupid articles on the news.


Eight Ways To Win My Heart

1) FUCKING LISTEN TO ME.
2) Don't ever abandon me.
3) Love me, love my horses.
4) Just stand back and let me have my little insane episodes.
5) Stop me returning to old habits.
6) Don't say you love me if you don't mean it, I despise lies.
7) Don't patronise me or treat me like a child.
8) Respect my decisions, regardless of how spazz-mental they might be.


Seven Things That Cross My Mind A Lot

1) Are Bertie and Tai alright?
2) Are Ben and Gus alright?
3) Am I working tonight?
4) How am I going to tell my parents I fail?
5) Why does time have to be so linear?
6) Did I upset my dad? I hope not...
7) I wonder if anyone's online...


Six Things I Do Before I Fall Asleep

1) Brush me teeth (five mins, interdentals, put the bands in.... bitch...)
2) Close all the windows and turn lights off.
3) Put PJs on and snuggle.
4) Write in my diary.
5) Talk to Nick.
6) Turn CD player on, almost muted, with either Arcade Fire or Fleet Foxes to send me to sleep.


Five Places I Want To Visit

1) Iran.
2) America, not sure where though... where do you guys live?
3) Kenya.
4) Malaysia, to see where I once might have lived.
5) Aberystwyth, dear god let me go to Aberystwyth, I'll do anything to get in, please please...


Four Things I'm Wearing Right Now

1) Baby powder duck-egg blue sort-of bikini top.
2) Black and white stripey french knickers.
3) Pink fade-to-white sarong with flowers.
4) My white and green watch with no numbers on the dial, which is fail for someone who can't tell the time.


Three Bands That I Listen To Often

1) Arcade Fire
2) Franz Ferdinand
3) The Killers


Two Things I Want To Do Before I Die

1) Do something. Get my degree in Genetic Engineering, go to a lab and work my arse off until I can say that I've made a difference.
2) Work abroad, preferrably in a hot country or a muslim country. Somewhere that is more relaxed.


One Confession

My life is one big ball of fiction. I say things that aren't real, I try to make up for my pitfalls and failures by hiding in writing, by talking through other people, by weaving silly little stories. Time is linear, and I'm moving along the line very slowly, but very obviously, towards a little pit of death. "Here lies Rachel - a twat."

The thing that scares me more than anything is failure. With this being the day before A level results I can safely say I have never felt more terrified in my entire life. I feel sick, I can't stop shaking. I just want to know, to have them put me out of my misery. At the moment, I can see no future beyond tomorrow, picking up that sheet of paper and seeing the three letters that could change my life. I know they will be nowhere near as good as what my family expects of me.

I'm an only child. I have no brothers or sisters. I have no cousins, no second cousins. I'm the only one, The end of the line, the last resort, thanks to a lovely little twist of genetics which means I will only ever be the only child. The pressure of my mum and dad, my aunts and uncle, all of it concentrated on my shoulders is almost unbearable. I try and speak out and it turns into an arguement, and I hate argueing with my family. They're all I've got. It's times like this I wish the more level-headed family members were still alive. My grandparents on my mother's side. I could walk there now, sit and cry. I'd get a cup of tea and sympathy, and be told they would love me whatever happened. Right now I'm sat here knowing that if I don't deliver the goods tomorrow my mother won't speak to me for weeks, and my dad will be devastated. They want so much from me and there isn't a hope in hell that I can ever be the daughter they deserve.

Thank you for listening to my rant. :)


Hop across the bridge...

Mon Jul 13, 2009, 5:50 AM
  • Mood: Glad
  • Watching: Top Gear
  • Playing: TBA
  • Eating: Spaghetti Sandwitch 8D
  • Drinking: Nettle Tea
I'z goin' to Cardiff, luvvers!

Decided that, since :iconneverreallybeensure: told me about a little Torchwood signing I'll be hopping off to the wonderous capital city on my day off on Friday. What fun we shall have.

Do a bit of shopping, watch Harry Potter mebbeh. Looking for someone to go with still, might drag me muther if no-one else fancies it. Day out on the other side of the river will be pretty nice, I'm fed up of it from this side, all muddy and rubbish.

And it'll be good to drive over the bridge for the first time.

AAH.

HEIGHTS.

HELP.

But yeh, Nem I owe you thanks for the heads-up. Should be fun times.

In other news I'm on a split shift today. That means I've just done four hours of work, am having a four-hour gap in the middle of the day and have to go on to do another four hours at six. THE BEST TIMES I DON'T THINK.

Frigging missing half the day, gtfo...

INCIDENTALLY I painted over my hand with creosote and now it looks like it's been left in the sun too long and it won't come off. What a fail.

I'm off now, anyways.

Hope you don't die or anything.

xx


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